February 28, 2009

Convo?

I need some good, old-fashioned conversation.

Please and thank you.

And, uh... a bit of intelligence added in there would be nice.
Incredibly nice.

February 26, 2009

Run

I just want to run.
Run far.
Run fast.
Run hard.

Sounds glorious.

February 25, 2009

Ugh 5

to posting.

I'm over it.

Back in business.

February 24, 2009

February 23, 2009

February 22, 2009

February 21, 2009

February 20, 2009

Raccoons, Revisited

So I'm at home... again.
I believe this is the fourth weekend in a row.
But it's mid-winter break, so I have an extra day added to my weekend.

Anyway, we had a few surprise guests drop in directly after dinner.
Last June (the seventeenth, to be precise), I stumbled upon three, baby raccoons - or more like they stumbled upon me! Anyway, three raccoons were scavenging around outside our eating area window, where my mom had scattered some bread around our bird feeder. Well, at first there were only two. Then, soon enough, a third joined them. I just knew it was the three raccoons I had seen in June. Precious.

They're too cute.

February 19, 2009

Good Cheer

To be honest, I don't technically "feel" any better.
However, I am attempting to adjust my attitude and believe that my mood has improved quite a bit already.
I'm ready to come back.

February 18, 2009

Vicious Cycle

Ugh.
I'm rarely sick, but when I am it can take quite a while to recover.
However, I don't think I'm getting sick or anything. I don't know. I just really don't feel well. At all.
... Lightbulb.
I don't think that I'm physically sick or whatever, so much as stressing and worrying myself to feeling sick...
Great.
But, I mean, I am one of the most stress-free people I know. I rarely stress. And I don't find myself worrying a lot, either. So in conclusion, I believe that this is really not good. And that makes me worrisome... yet not being worried is important to me... but then focusing on not worrying and trying to make everything alright makes me feel stressed. Then I worry some more. I can't think clearly. My stomach feels like it's tied up in knots. My head hurts. It's difficult for me to write, even - and when that happens, I know something is wrong. This is just ridiculous! And it's starting to scare me.

February 17, 2009

Hebrew

I just finished studying Hebrew for four, straight hours.
What a night.
... And I still do not feel prepared for my test tomorrow.
Great.

February 16, 2009

Magic

It's amazing what some good, old-fashioned laughter can do.
Brilliant.

February 15, 2009

Ready

I'm still looking for that change in my life that I talked about a month and a half ago.
Where is it?
What could it be?
Or maybe, what should it be?
I don't know.
Regardless, I'm ready for it.
I honestly need it.

February 14, 2009

Lurve

Happy Valentine's Day!
Or, as a lot of people say, Happy Single's Awareness Day!

It's been a good day. Drove back to school from home this afternoon. Turns out everybody was in Columbia. So I got to spend a lot of time by myself today. Not gonna lie, it was a great thing...

Lifelines

Lifeline #3: My Mom

My mom is my rock. After God, she is the one I turn to the most. I talk to her more than the rest of my family, and even more than my friends and the people whom I am surrounded by constantly here at school. She is the one I turn to with questions [both secular and non-secular], or when I am upset, or when I simply need a bit of intelligent conversation... and no further commentary on that is necessary. In all seriousness, though, my mom is a very special woman and she helps me get through every day, without even knowing it. Just thinking about her brings a smile to my face.

Well. Now you know, Mutti.
And I thank God for you.

February 12, 2009

Lifelines

Lifeline #2: Pen and Paper

When I don't feel that I can say or pray the right thing, or I just have all these emotions bottled up inside that are creating extreme tension, I put everything out on the table by writing. I simply let it all out, usually in cursive. Because even though the writing may be full of mean, ugly thoughts and such... it at least looks nice and pretty. Writing always has been - and likely always will be - my preferred form of communication. I am all the more realizing the importance of oral communication, but writing simply does it for me. It works. It's good. And it helps me more than venting to a friend or screaming into my pillow or whatever else people may do.

February 11, 2009

Lifelines

I feel like we all have "lifelines" that help us along our daily walks. These so-called lifelines can come in many different forms, such as people, objects, concepts or ideas, books, conversations, etc. Lifelines are semi-earthly things, if you will, that you are able to cling to and have that sense of hope that we seem to so desperately need. They give us some breathing room, you know? For whatever reason, I've been thinking about my lifelines recently. I'd like to share a few of them over the next few days. So here goes!

Lifeline #1: My Bible

When I feel like I have no one to talk to... and perhaps don't even want to talk to God... I turn to my Bible. More often than not, God speaks to me through His Word - even during those times that I don't feel like talking to Him. Unfortunately, I don't turn to this lifeline as much as I should. But when I do, I'm always thankful for what I get out of it, especially when I receive encouragement. It's definitely a good lifeline to have...

February 10, 2009

Yayyy

It's Mike Guy's 20th Birthday! Three cheers.
Oh, Mike.
He's such a good person.
Great friend.
I sure hope he decides to stay next year, after all. Hm. We'll see!

February 9, 2009

Hate

Dang it.
I hate myself.

February 8, 2009

Bishop

Bishop Julius Calvin Trimble spoke at our church this afternoon. Well. Evening. The service started at 4:00, but he didn't start his sermon until 5:30. It was a really nice service. We joined with a few other Methodist churches in our region; our church hosts things like that because it's large - and it was not flooded this past summer...

Bishop Trimble was appointed Bishop this past fall. Bishop Gregory V. Palmer was our previous bishop. I had heard Bishop Palmer speak a few times during his term; I always enjoyed listening to what he had to say and benefited from his sermons greatly. Bishop Trimble's sermon was fantastic. I was really encouraged and can't wait to hear him speak again.

Three Years

I figured out tonight that I will still be able to graduate in 2011 like I am "supposed" to, having graduated high school in 2007. It's going to be challenging, for sure. But by taking the same number of classes I am taking this semester (seven - 19 credit hours), each semester for five semesters after this spring, I will be eligible to graduate in December of 2011.

Rock on.

February 6, 2009

Again

I am at home.
Again.
I was just here two weekends ago.
And the weekend after next I'll be home again [for mid-winter break].

... I have my reasons.

But I am glad to be here and am excited to spend time with my family.
My brother is in Ames for the Iowa State University Honor Band. We're going to his concert tomorrow. Before then, we're visiting my sister's family for a bit. I'm excited to see them, for sure. This should be a good weekend - even though I've got some homework I need to work on!

February 5, 2009

Tired

Is a little courtesy too much to ask for?
What about less selfishness?
Or a nice bit of cordiality?

I mean, honestly.

February 4, 2009

Busy

I have so much to do tonight.
Ugh.

February 3, 2009

Wrong

I like being right. Correct. Whatever.
However you want to put it... I like it.
I like it a lot.

However,I don't mind being wrong.
It's not fun to be wrong, necessarily.
But it's not always a bad thing.
You always learn something from being wrong.
It's humbling.

Tonight I realized that I don't mind admitting that I am wrong.
Is that prideful?

February 2, 2009

Tea

Today I drank some tea; it was fantastic. The tea I drank was Queen Catherine, loose leaf. I had never tried this variety before, so I was in for a surprisingly wonderful treat. The tea was very soothing, and subtly strong - if that makes sense. Life just seems... right... when drinking tea.

As much as I enjoyed the Queen Catherine tea, however, Bigelow Lemon Lift is still my favorite.

Uneventful

Today was so uneventful... man oh man.
Usually I do quite a bit of homework on Sundays.
The only assignment I did today was a character profile for Acts - and it's not even due until Thursday.
It was just one of those days.
Blaaaaah.

PS, I can't believe it's already February.
Crazy!