Oh, how I long for contact.
The physicality of relationships is important.
I don't mean this in the sense that people have to be touching.
There's something about simply being in someone's presence that can be good - or bad - for us.
Just think about it.
A goofy friend.
A friendly stranger.
A strange boss.
A bossy child.
A childish coworker.
Family.
Friends.
Acquaintances.
Authority figures.
The list goes on.
Being in the presence of these people will bring about emotions and feelings and thoughts that make us react in different ways. We will do and say things that we never thought we would do or say in front of "him". We will ask questions that make us seem bold... or stupid... to "her". We will be loud and obnoxious or quiet and shy for seemingly the first time in our entire lives around "them".
Why?
Well.
"It just depends."
But yes... contact is important.
And I don't have it.
At least not in the form I truly desire.
I feel like I have no one.
No one to feel stupid around.
No one to be loud and obnoxious or quiet and shy around.
No one to ask questions to.
No one to listen to.
No one to talk with.
I am surrounded by people at my places of work.
We have "discussion questions" to post and respond to for my classes.
I am so lonely.
Being in the presence of "these people" is, I'm sorry to say, a bad thing.
I do not want to be where I am.
I do not want to work or take classes.
I want to go... anywhere.
Anywhere but here.
I want to do... anything.
Anything but this.
But I can't.
I'm trapped.
