June 15, 2008

Lucky?

What do you say is perfection? What do you say is happiness? What do you say is success?

I think there is no certain answer to any of these three questions. Certain factors play in... people's personalities, dreams and goals... and everything added together from each individual equals entirely different answers - as well as endless possibilities.

I've never thought of myself as a perfect individual.
I've never thought that I have a perfect family.
I've never thought that I have a perfect life.

I've had days of absolute sadness.
I've had days of absolute angst.
I've had days of absolute worry.

I've let great opportunities slip away.
I've let my grades slip away.
I've let friends and family slip away.

I think everything depends on one's perspective and attitude.

When I am about to implode as I hear my brother playing Dragonforce on Guitar Hero over and over, someone may look at us and think, 'I wish I still had my brother.'

When I think I'm having the worst day ever and I'll never be happy again, someone may look at me and think, 'I wish I could be as happy as she is.'

When I get a test back that I thought I had aced and see that I only received a B- and want to give up, someone may look over my shoulder and think, 'If only my D- was her B-...'

The truth is, my life really is "perfect".
I've had good times and I've had bad times, but I have nothing to complain about.
The truth is, I've certainly experienced absolute happiness before.
Yes, I have experienced other emotions, but I know there is always room for happiness.
The truth is, I know I have been and will be successful in much that I do.
I know that I will fail and make mistakes, but that in doing so I will be learning.

Lately I've really been thinking about what everything truly means to me... how important my family and faith are... how I can be a better person and friend... and how meaningless this life can become if we focus on the negative and not the positive. In seventh grade I would have rolled my eyes at someone saying "It's all about your attitude." - but I finally realize how true that is and the importance of a good attitude.

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